June 19, 2017
It will not always be clear. You will not always know what it is you want, what your vision looks like, or what your purpose is. It may feel as though you are just blindly wandering along, not really knowing if anything you are doing is really going to help some higher cause, or take you to a place of fulfillment. These feelings are inevitable, and they are just as much a part of the process as defining your passion, your purpose, and your plan. It is in these times where you’ll find the importance of, at a minimum, prescribing to an ideal.
Although goals, plans, and visions can provide us comfort and motivation in the darkest of hours, just because you don’t have them doesn’t mean you are altogether lost. Sometimes the only guiding light you will have is an ideal, or a concept, which is completely formless, but holds a deep meaning to you somehow. As you embed these principles into all that you do, slowly a vision will form through opportunity, and that vision will eventually give way to passion, which will power your purpose. You may even know exactly what it is you want to do, but it doesn’t exist yet, in which case you need to derive courage from those ideals, so you can go out and create exactly what you see in your mind.
You don’t always have to know exactly where you are going in order to know how you are going to get there. The fire inside of you doesn’t always need to know what it is burning in order to burn, but it does need fuel to stay lit. Do not settle for mediocrity in the face of blindness. Just because you may not yet be able to see your future, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist, and just because it doesn’t exist, doesn’t mean you can’t create it. So set chase to that which cannot yet be seen, led only by a trust in a concept, and open your eyes to a reality you never imagined possible. – CPT Ryan
June 12, 2017
The Fight is On
We all have a tendency to fight ourselves right out of opportunity, achievement, and fulfillment. We become transfixed with the idea that who we really are is not at all who we should be, and that person starts to repulse us. We think that person is lackluster, boring, awkward, and weird. We start to wonder how anyone would like them for who they are, or what anyone could possibly see in them, or how there’s any way they could achieve success.
So we adjust, we reformat, and we cover up the person we think is dragging us down. We start to model ourselves in the image of someone else, and begin to slowly fabricate a façade. We find ourselves suddenly sacrificing our values, devaluing relationships, and losing our identity to a passionless rat race. All of this in an attempt to give life to this new person we have created out of a place of insecurity, only to find it was actually nothing we ever wanted.
We are all comprised of two people; who we are, and who we pretend to be. The fight between the two will rage on forever, unless you are willing to see that you will only start moving forward when you are willing to fight harder for who you are, than who you aren’t. You may not be where you want, you may not have developed the skills you need yet, you may want to kick some bad habits; but the core of who you are, that place where your passions burn, your values are conceived, and your very being live, that place doesn’t need change…that place needs power. So fight for its life, so you can truly start to live yours. – CPT Ryan